l'amor che move il sole e l'altre stelle

heloo. mmm. i've decided not to ask jeremy back anymore. okay vera, i know you're happy for me. yeah, i guess i must be the world's biggest idiot to continue to think that he still have THAT TINY LITTLE BIT of feelings for me. i chatted with him and honestly it was heart wrenching. i didn't expect the guy i loved so much before is actually like this. i don't know. he described our relationship as "infatuation that lasted very long". how extremely fucked up is that. i can't help but to be angry right. and he also said he had always like his ex. note, ALWAYS. if he wasn't my ex, i would have smash his skull with a sledgehammer. okay, i've woken up from my stupid little fatuous dream and i'm not going to continue sleeping. hmm now that all these had happened, i find it impossible to trust any guys anymore. they are all unfeeling creatures from hell. man, i'm turning lesbian. lol. anyway jeremy, if you're reading this. you'll probably think im childish and shit by saying all those. but i tell you, you've been a big bitch by doing that to me and i won't ever forget. so what if i'm forgetful? i've ever said you were the best thing to happen to me, i'm taking it back. you waltzed into my life, fucked it upside down and went away. i won't forget it.